Author Archives: Leah

TIME.  Often, I’ve told myself I’m ‘lucky’ to have developed my Eating Disorder at the age of 18.  Increasingly, younger and younger people are suffering from a multitude of different forms of disordered eating and/or eating disorders. While their peers are laughing in the playground, they are navigating the cruel reality of life with anContinue reading “Lost. Present. Borrowed. Future. New. Old. Current. Past. “

When I was diagnosed with Osteoporosis aged 21, most of the information available targeted the elderly population (and still does), and the consequences of what it could have on my body (and my life overall) felt too far in the future to even contemplate. Osteoporosis is a progressive skeletal disease which leads to a reducedContinue reading “Osteoporosis and I.”

What’s the harm? When I was stuck in my punitive, compulsive exercise regime in the midst of my battle with Anorexia, I was convinced my workouts were doing ‘something’. Losing fat, gaining muscle, maintaining or reducing weight…any/all of it, I didn’t really know but I thought exercise was one of the biggest players in myContinue reading “Exercising whilst underweight and/or under-fuelled.”

I’ve finally (1 Pandemic and 3 lockdowns later) qualified as a Personal Trainer! A year ago, I signed up to do my Level 2 Fitness Instructor, and Level 3 Personal Training qualifications.  I knew I wanted to do it in the future, but when the COVID-19 pandemic ‘hit’, lockdown left many of us with moreContinue reading “Reflective sh*t from a newly qualified PT.”

In the grips of Anorexia, I drowned in guilt.  Guilt for eating. Guilt for restricting. Guilt over the pain I was causing, to myself, my body and those around me. Guilt for the time I was losing in this… “One f*cking life of yours”.  I felt this, and yet the strength of Anorexia left meContinue reading “Guilty.”

Tomorrow, (May 17th, 2021) England opens up a little bit more after the 3rd lockdown of the COVID-19 pandemic. New laws mean we can sit indoor cafes/restaurants, attend in-person fitness classes, and spend time with people in our own homes (amongst other changes).  Exciting, huh?!  For many, yes. Yet, for those suffering with an EatingContinue reading “Unlocked.”

“I had flashbacks of punishing kitchen based workouts, secretive compulsive exercising, and an underlying dread of associating my tiny home with movement over rest.“ A year ago, I would NOT have exercised from home. With a history of an Eating Disorder this would have been dangerous territory for me. Having worked so hard to restoreContinue reading “Online fitness and Eating Disorders: Friend or foe?”

By Leah When I was first diagnosed, I told anyone who would listen (which wasn’t many!!) that I wasn’t… “supposed to get an eating disorder…it’s just not…like me?!” My diagnosis of Anorexia was given almost immediately as I was lucky (?!) enough to be “lobbed” (my words aged 18) into mental health services from theContinue reading ““I sat happily in a bikini. I walked freely into a bar. I ate simply because…I wanted to.””

I have an Eating Disorder. Here’s what I need YOU, as a FitPro, to do” By Leah 1. Consider my immediate risk. Carly had no obvious way of knowing this, and you likely won’t either. Why? Because you can’t always SEE an Eating Disorder and you certainly can’t tell someone’s health from their size orContinue reading ““Hello. Can we talk?”